Wednesday, February 29, 2012

Guys, get a life

This blog is the escape from reality that helps me see reality.
But, I swear, sometimes, I read other peoples blogs and I want to cry and laugh at the same time.
I don't really know why. I just feel like you are having a pity party and you want other people to understand. But I don't understand and then, I feel you are just following the crowd.
I'm not saying that I don't do that, but I am trying to be happy and cheerful and go past the bleak cloud that is called school.
Song time: 2PM -- Hands Up. This song makes me so happy and I feel that it is just about letting yourself and having fun. There are nights in your life that you just need to spend treating yourself.

Monday, February 27, 2012


The joys of being a dancer is that your joints hurt and you get to raid the drug store for things that actually work. Pinky Balls are brilliant, they are pink balls that helps with anything. They help sore arms and legs and knees.
But it's my lower back that's killing me, when I move, it's stiff but the rewards of applause if rewarding.
My expo is turning out great....ish. The plants are growing and I haven't really been yelled at yet sooo.
There isn't really anything in my life right now. School is school.
But, today I realized something. I really, really like science. I don;t know why but I really like it. There is something soothing to me when I over come a challenge and I love the petri dishes and the really cool equipment that clutters the black lab benches. I used to not really like science but I have come to appreciate it.
Sorry, this is not a very long post. I'm doing ok actually.
Song: Super Junior -- Mr. Simple. Ok. OK. This is Korean Pop (K-Pop) but I love them. They have goods songs and even though they aren't as cute as 2pm, they are still really good.

Sunday, February 26, 2012

Yesterday, I spent all day cleaning out of my room. I cleaned out all of crap in my closet and donating, I swear, half of my closet to the thrift shop. There is stuff going to the attic and there is some stuff just being throw away. It feels good not having things that I don'e even like that much. There is some stuff that I'm like, 'yeah, I like that but do I really need it? I kinds like but...' My mom just said 'It goes, you don't need it.'
So, I'm half watching the the Oscars and writing on my blog and doing science things that I didn't do...
I spent 9 hours with some great friends from Church. We went to the civil rights museum and that was fun.We listened to my music there but we fought over it on the way home. It was so much fun, even though I slept most of the way home. It was really funny.
Dance was really fun and we are getting far in to our Earth Day dance. It is so pretty, there is water and white cloth. It is so cool. We are going to wear dresses and my teacher is going to dip them in to blue so the hem is going to be blue. So cool.
Song; The Story -- Brandi Carlile

Wednesday, February 22, 2012

The little moments

Biking is an amazing thing. I was biking to school today and I had a THOUGHT!!!! If a picture is a thousand words and you are just taking a moment of life, then what if you have one of those cameras that takes 3/4 pictures a second? How many moments can you define? This makes so much sense because a camera is just a transportation devise for the thousands and thousands of words that are piled in you. You can take a snap shot and that is all you need for a great story and a great day.
Sorry but I had a thought.
So, I went to H&M and I got really cute clothes that really really make me happy.
I took the dog on a walk and when I got back, I felt great because I got out of the house and exercised and moved my body for a little while.
Also, I was leaving school and I took my sweatshirt off, think that even though I'll properly freeze my arms off, I didn't wear a sweatshirt biking home. It was amazing. It was warm and there was a stronger but warm wind.
I think it's crazy how my friend in Quebec is skiing and it's 75 degrees here. What is this guys? Really? I think that Mother Nature is trying to tell us something.
I was looking around on YouTube and I looked up The Fray and at the end of the music video, there was a recommend video, for a guy named Ron Pope. So, he caught my attention and he is really good. Here is is: Ron Pope -- Fireflies.

Monday, February 20, 2012

That day

Yes, that day, 14 years ago and my life started. I got emails and phone calls, texts and Facebook posts. They are centered around me. I admit, I blushed when ever I went on to Facebook and saw that 3 other people posted on my wall. They all said the same thing, happy birthday. But it was different for each person. I got messages form my old gym teacher, a friend who I haven't seen since like June and people who I see every day.
I went to H'n'M and I got some really cute clothes. Springy and a new look. The lady at Sephora put make up on me and now I have make up that is natural looking and I could wear in a daily basis.
You know, this entire weekend, I was relaxed. I didn't stress over everything.
But now, I have to go to dance in an hour and my mind is thinking of how my day got wasted away doing mindless things. But what more could I have done? I cleaned my room and the kitchen, I put away my presents, I took the dog on a walk. But I feel like I didn't do enough.
The song for today is: Hallelujah This version is by Rufas Wainwright but the original one is by Leonardo Cohen.

Thursday, February 16, 2012

My life has gone from great to good to pretty bad. The weather is grey and my hopes are dashed. My comments turn sour and I have no wear to go to vent. It's raining and I'm stuck inside, doing homework and science labs.
 My iPod seems to be playing the same songs over and over and over again. I am so tired of the songs and I all I want is new songs.
Sorry id I sound negative but it's raining and there is no sun. I think that sun makes all the difference. You mood reflects the sun's rays as you run around outside. The fresh air wraps around you but the rain is slow and it's not a strong rain but it is continues.
I have three boxes of girl scout cookies and I am prepared to eat them all and drown my misfortunes in Peanut Butter Patties and Thin Mints. I think that they drug those cookies because they are so good. Peanut Butter Patties and Thin Mints are my absolute favorite cookies.
So, I was thinking about the song and this one makes me so happy: John Mayer -- Say
This song reassures me and I often talk to my self after I hear this song.

Tuesday, February 14, 2012

Oh my goodness

Well, for starts, I saw Alvin Ailey last night at Memorial Hall. The precision of their feet and how quickly they do everything while being so effortless. I loved all of the dances and everything seemed so fresh and original. There was this amazing hip hop piece but it wasn't choreographed by Alvin Ailey. My favorite was choreographed by Alvin Ailey --Revelations. I loved this one because this one has so much energy. There should be a couple of videos on the bottom and those were all choreographed by Alvin Ailey. There was so much spirit, love and energy that was showed on the stage. It was unbelievable. If you are a dancer, watch this. If you aren't a dancer you are going to watch this.
I helped save 12,000 people on Sunday night. Stop Hunger Now helps package and serve meals in rural countries. They said that they didn't just send meals to Africa, there were meals to Central America also. All countries that need help. It was an amazing experience to save 12,000 lives in an hour and a half.
I got a new field hockey stick. It's a really nice one and I got new cleats. So excited for hockey season to start!!!
So here is the song: Coco Tea -- Barack Obama This song was made in 2008 and it was in support for Obama. It is a genius song and I love it. If you aren't an Obama fan, think of the tune!

Friday, February 10, 2012

Half my Heart is some where else, thinking somewhere else and know that I will never get a grip. I had dance rehearsals and now I am sore and tired and my sister is watching Camp Rock. I have watched the end of P&P and checked FB so many times that it isn't even funny. I talked to old friends and danced around a lot. I'm listening to music. Getting just a tad bit bored.
So, I'm gonna start something new on my blog. New songs. When ever I find a new, good song, I'll post it. Leave a song in the comments and I can listen to them and put them on my iTouch, maybe even my blog! 
So here is the song: John Mayer -- Half of My Heart 

It is kinds a sad song but it has a great tune!! Perfect story of what is going on  in a teen's life.
My friend has the Robo-baby and she is being a great mom. Can't wait until I have it.  Dance classes and rehearsals.
BUT field hockey season starts March 5th and I am so excited. I hit the ball around and my sister is doing it with me. Can't wait until I have practice and games and am able to ribbons in my hair -- er, jersey.

Thursday, February 9, 2012

Expo and Switzerland

Well,  my procedure is written. The plants came. All that I need to do now is actually do it and write my procedure.
BUT I'm am so behind. My hypothesis is fuzzy, I need to do my purpose questions, I actually need to get the fertilizers and containers.
For the people who don't know what the Expo is, it is the big science experiment that the 7th and 8th graders do for 2 months. The students choose their own science topic, research, write a procedure, test the experiment, write the lab, including the data analysis, you are writing the science lab prep. You are doing the lab. It's so hard. The board. Don't even get me started in the board. Most of the kids last year didn't do their board until the night before the Expo.
So the Expo is a long, stressful, fun science experiment. It supposedly shows how to plan your time but really, we are so wrapped in other things that we forget about for a little while but then you are slammed. It's great.
I love hot chocolate. It reminds me of snow and of all the childhood memories of snowed in school days, sledding and Pepsi snow (long story behind that, very, very long story.)
I got a card from my grandparents in Switzerland. I miss Switzerland so much, the food and the views, the hikes and the Migro. Walking around Thun was amazing because everything was so close together but then again, so far away. Walking along side the Aare and watching the swans peck for bread. The dare-devil guys wake board white caps from the Aare when it goes through the bridge. The red and pink potted plants along the fence. The outdoor cafe's and the big Ferris Wheel.
I really miss Switzerland and having the mountains look at daily.

Wednesday, February 8, 2012

My life and lies

I love the thrill of doing some thing that I know is wrong but I do it anyway and I know every way of getting around it. Like knowing that I'm supposed to be doing homework but I can save this and quickly mover to a new tab.
Alvin Ailey is  coming to Memorial Hall and I am supper psyched to go see them perform but I have no clue where the tickets are. Only minor problem.
I went to Ephesus to day and hit the field hockey ball around with my little sister and her friend. It was a lot of fun but definitely harder than most things because I was used to knowing how to do things things and not really having to teach how to push pass or pull. It was great fun and now we are going to play for an hour each week for pre-season. Yeah Sophie.
It's now Duke v. Carolina. Go Tar Heels! I love being at games and watching the students react because the cheers that they chant are the funniest and you wonder how they were created.
I have 45 minutes left of Pride and Prejudice and cannot wait until Lizzie and Darcy get married! They are such a cute couple and I love how both of them are so madly in love with each other that they don't want to admit it. I can't handle the mother though. Her poor, poor nerves. She get's in to hysterics and it is so funny to watch but after the 4th scene and she is freaking out, I can't handle it any more. I have to fast forward it. I love Darcy's sister, she is so pretty and small.
My knee hurt but it was fixed by a hot water pad.  Had some raspberry tea and listened to John Mayer. I really miss being in the band. We were Undecided and had a great time being together. We rocked out and had a great time talking and collaborating with each other. The one line in Unbreakable that really stood out to me was "You broke everything that I every had/But I'm unbreakable/Why are you so sad?/ I'm not falling for you" I loved performing that song because people can tell you things but you are the one that lets them break you. You are letting them effect you. You are unbreakable.

Sunday, February 5, 2012


I don't have a best friend or a person that I can lean on. I feel like I have layers of friends and none of them are where I want them to be. The top layer is the friends that I never really talk to but when I do, it's pleasant. The next layer is the people who when ever I talk to them, they listen. They are like my dance friends and we have so much fun together. Then there are the friends that I love dearly but they have their own life and I don't feel comfortable spilling all of my secrets to and talking to about my life. I have a great time with them but they have their own life and burdens and their own friends. 
Those are the girls in my class. They have their best friends and the people that inspire them. But who so I have? I thought that maybe, a couple of them would want to lend an ear but all that they want to do is talk to their better friends and ignore me. That just leaves me more depressed. Why do you always have to just push me away? I'm not desperate, I know who I am. 
Maria. She is amazing because she is such a serious dancer but she has two ears and she always listens to me before and after class. I love how she always smiles and wants to talk. Thank you so much dear Maria.
Hannah. Even though she's in Oregon, I feel the connection through blogs and emails. She is always open for me when I need to vent about something and has a great sense of style. 
But to the girls in my class, please don't be my friend unless you actually like me. If you hate me, don't be my friend or try to be nice to me. It won't do you or me any good. 

Colin Firth

Oh my goodness. I watched the first disc of Pride and Prejudice and so for 3 hours, I watched Colin First stare at Jennifer Ehle and Julia Sawalha flirt with all of the officers at the balls. That is what I do with my life. Watch romantic movies and die when Mr. Darcy ask Lizzie Bennett to marry him. I love Pride and Prejudice. Its a classic movie.
So tonight, I'm going to watch the Super Bowl. Yea. I really am not that interested in football and couldn't care less on who wins. I'm there to see friends. We always see the Super Bowl with a couple family friends and we have pre-game rituals that are very important to us.
Going on a mission trip the day after graduation this summer! So excited because we are going to NYC! We are going to do work at the food pantry and do human services.  I am so excited and we might go see a Broadway show. My youth directer is amazing and she is so much fun.

Saturday, February 4, 2012

Jump and Escape

Yesterday, I spent:
1. An hour and a half rehearsing 
2. Almost 2 and a half hours at a Carolina Women's Basketball game
3. 45 minutes wandering around my friends house, eating hummus out of the container and dissing my friend on my he hasn't seen Modern Family yet
It was a total of almost 7 hours of not being home. Not saying that it was bad, but I really wanted some solid food and some tea. 

Things that make me really happy:
1. Gilmore Girls, that show makes me laugh. It's good to have a guilty pleasure because you have something to fall back on when you get sad.
2. Chocolate. Especially the Swiss kind with the crisps on the bottom. Or hazelnuts. Either one is great. 
3. H'n'M. That store makes me so happy because I love their clothes. They are not that fancy and relatively cheap. They don't look that cheap and the clothes are simple, yet edgy and cool.
4. Tea. Raspberry, Red zinger, lemon, as long as it tastes great and has a good purpose, I will drink it. It is so relaxing.
5. When people do the little things that ends up leading to the bigger picture. They do it out of the kindness of their heart and they don't get told to. 

I want some where to confide to. When I need some where to go when I need time to think. There are no woods behind my house and I can drive any where. It's either my room or no where. I love my room but there are 4 walls. In the woods, there is a jump-able fence made of trees and you can go anywhere and no one will find you.