High school

I'm not kidding when I say that I can get to bed by 9, maybe even 8:30 on a good day

'Wow! That's crazy!' My friends say.

Not really. I have a free third period.

How much homework do freshman actually get?!?

I can do most of it at school

I get home and actually do it with as little procrastination as possible

But, I was recently diagnosed with ADHD and specifically with my short term memory

(That explains so many not-so-great Spanish test...)

But because I have ADHD, I have to work that much harder

I have to come to the conclusions that it is a good thing.

It will prepare me to try hard and be determined

Stick with and really learn, study

That's kinda what I like about high school

East is a really hard school

But my bio teacher, he took 4 AP's

And is fine in life

I can push my self really hard

(I know a girl taking 4 AP's sophomore year!!)

But I can still try hard and take 2 or 3

Junior year.

Who said that I need to take a million AP's?
No-one
I can take all the hard and
All the easy classes I want
If I try hard and do take a couple hard class,
I'll go to collage
There are so many collages
It's not like I'm not gonna go to one

So, in the next 4 years,
I will push my self
I will not stress my self out too much
I will not take classes that I know are way too hard for me
(AP Physics!!)
I will have fun

Field Hockey

Today was a sad day.

Field hockey season is over.

No more games.

No more practicing.

I won't have to lug my stuff to and from school.

The locker room won't be used by a lot of us.

(Varsity still has States)

I won't need to remember when the next game is.

No more cramps and insane running practices.

But,

It's melancholy

 I won't play for a year

Maybe in the spring

I had the best team that anyone could ever ask for

Undefeated, with only 1 tie!!

We had one goal scored on us

My team was so much fun

We talked, cheered, critiqued 

I played hard

I worked hard

I got better

I will see you all next year

It will be a long year

I will miss you all

I will miss the feeling of working hard and then drinking ice-cold water

I'll miss dressing up for games

I'll miss cheering on my team

I'll miss making good plays

I might even miss the sweat and how bad the locker room smelled after a game...

But all in all, it was a great season.

Even though it got off to a rocky start,

I'm glad that I stuck with it

I made new friends

There will always be people better than me

I will be better than some people

But that is life

It is a sport that I love 

Song: in case you haven't heard one of the best kpop songs: Gangham Style -- Psy

Another Poem...

We were driving fast, so fast

Saved some money

We got a ticket anywhere

City lights going to fast

We could be something

Just keep driving

Drive anywhere

Just Go

We could have that moment

That moment so pure

Ringing of freedom

Poem

I found this poem in one of my older post and it made me kinda melancholy, thinking of all my old friends. It made me think of the anger I felt, how lonely I was and how fortunate I was to go to a Montessori school.

Poem:

The feeling 

The dread
The loneliness
Trapped in my own body
My head and
My heart
You don't understand
But you try
Thank you but
No thanks
Maybe I'm not as special
As I thought
Notice that I'm saying
I, Me
And not
You, Her
I'm trapped and
Can't get out
I want to so bad
I feel like
You don't know me
And don't want to hang out with me
You have other friends
Other people to
Spend time with
All I want is a
Friend 

My older sister and she just turned 17!! There are a lot of reasons why she is the best and why is is soo cool but here are 17 reasons why:

1. She is hilarious. I love hanging out with her because she just says the funniest things and can make you laugh so hard. Even though she can make some snarky comments every now and then, they are always funny.
2. She cooks really good Korean food, which is not a bad thing! I love how excited she gets when she gets a new cookbook, no make what type of food. She gets really happy when she recognizes dishes and she can't start making all this delicious food. 
3. Her style is amazing. She has so much clothing that I love just going through her closet and finding clothes to wear for that day. Her sense of style is chic and comfortable. A cute dress layered with a pink sweater. She puts her hair up and she looks great.
4. She looks really good with a little makeup. She puts on a little mascara and she already looks good for the day.
5. Her even temper. She doesn't get that angry and just kinda gets really happy. Sure, she has her moments but she is very even tempered. 
6. No matter how busy she is, she always finds 5 minutes to help with my biology.
7. Her friends are awesome. They all have so much fun together. They are spontaneous, funny and just so much fun to hang around.
8. I love riding in the car with her and blaring music. We sing in Korean, not know what we are saying, and have real bonding moments. We sometimes go and get FroYo and/or Sunrise biscuits and I really like eating them with her. Sacred moments. 
9. Music between us is really different. But we have common ground in some really deep music and I love discussing the true meaning of the words and how they relate to my life.
10. Her room really reflects her. It's colorful but monitored. An organized mess. 
11. She tutors Karen refugees and the way the she feels about helping them is indescribably. She loves helping them and learning about their culture. Just seeing their little faces light up when they learn something and grasp a new concept gives her so much joy.
12. Her maturity and her willingness to be a kid are great. She acts her age but she stills know how to have fun. One Friday night, we ordered Chinese food and we all spread out over the floor and ate sweet and sour chicken and watched Gilmore Girls. 
13. She's confident that nothing's out there stopping her from achieving her dreams. She works hard and is very determined. 
14. She is a true Tar Heel. She loves Carolina and the campus and the sports.
15. She is willing to learn from her mistakes and grow and have fun life. Though all her classes are not the easiest classes, she does them willingly and learns a lot.
16. Even though I'm just a little freshman, she talks to me at school and is interested in my classes and makes sure that I'm doing OK. 
17. But I think that what I love most about her is that she is supportive and caring. She is there for me every step of the way and she knows the best for me, even before I do. She is the best older sister I could ever have.

So that is my amazing sister. If you ever meet her, tell her I said hi and I that I love her a lot.